Journal / Thoughts as they come
The tip of
the iceberg.
Written while I still don't know how this ends.
By fifteen or sixteen days without alcohol, I had already written far more than is here. These entries are a small selection from that growing pile of notes, in the order they were written.
The gaps in the entry numbers are intentional. They belong to the wider notes, and I haven't shared all of them here.
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A Note Before I StartBefore you begin · 1 min readWhy I started writing, who G and S are, and why the contradictions stay in the notes.
•I Don't Know How This EndsPrologue · 3 min readThe night something clicked. Written from inside it, without knowing how the story ends.
2The Demon Changes Its ArgumentEntry Two · 3 min readA few days after the click, the demon stopped saying "get drunk" and started saying "you've earned it".
7I Don't Want to Be an AlcoholicEntry Seven · 2 min readA few days after writing "I am an alcoholic" to my wife, I started objecting to the word.
11Bye DaddyEntry Eleven · 1 min readSomething from that Friday night that keeps coming back to me.
•Ten Hours Sleep and Some Strange DreamsJournal · 1 min readTen hours sleep, a CCTV dream, and a message that never arrived.